O’ the time it took until my heart was transformed
For a long peroid of time i neglected to write a brief summary or short story of what’s been going on in my life. In all honesty, i didn’t want anyone to see the weak side of me. Its been several months of ups and downs, and getting caught standing in one place. I’ve learned what love should be, and what it shouldn’t be. I used my ability to drink to its advantage only to avoid heartache and pain. I was numb to everything. For four months i couldn’t cry. I lost all symptoms of emotion. I wondered, I stumbled, and i fell back into his arms. His love empowered my being. I cried to the point were I felt weak. I knew I had to surrender, but this time everything. The goosebumps ran up my arms as i was confessing. You see, i was a liar before. A liar in hiding. It was time to grow up, time to become the woman I always wanted to be. Time to put my childish ways aside, and drop everything. Believe me when i tell you “God created in me a new heart.” One that was patient and loving. A heart of truth and honesty. Everyday i’m learning, growing, and maturing. I’m not alone like I use to be. His presence surrounds me. Its like the feeling of wind blowing, but knowing its somebody. I wear a smile like no other. Im blessed to say i feel so alive and happier than ever before. And with this new city and all these new faces, I’m looking forward to the new beginnings God has for me.